On the 5th of December 2013, i found out i was expecting. Expecting what? Expecting a baby, expecting to be a mother, expecting my life to change forever.
The truth is, when you find out you are going to have a baby, a thousand thoughts race through your mind all at once. Am i ready? Is it a boy or a girl? What will my parents say? OMG! I'm going to be a mom!
Took me about a week to finally grasp reality and come to terms with the fact that in 9 months time god willing i will be holding a baby in my arms and from that moment on, my dreams, my ambitions, my life would no longer only consist of me, it would consist of heightening my dreams, pursuing my ambitions even further and changing my life to best suit my new family which will ultimately result in fulfillment of my life in ways i never thought possible.
Funny thing is when i found out i was expecting, i knew in my heart i was going to have a son even though it was only confirmed at my 13 week scan. I knew i would name him Elijah. I knew he would change my world and make me see the world through his eyes and now every morning when he wakes up, looks into my eyes i am reminded that the world is beautiful, full of possibility and that his happiness would be my life long goal.
The heading of this blog post has a very deep meaning, the day Elijah became me. When a child is born you spend days trying to figure out did this little person really form inside of me?
With each passing day as you see this little soul grow, cry, smile, laugh and talk in his own language you realise he is mine and i am his. I was no longer Donna Liedemann. I became Donna Liedemann mother of Elijah Joshua Liedemann.
He became me in every way! The most rewarding feeling was holding my baby in my arms for the first time. A moment i will remember for the rest of my life. That in every way possible was my greatest achievement. Even though world achievements may get you the best job, the best car, or the best house. Your greatest achievement as a woman is bringing a child into this world, raising them to the best of your ability and watching them grow and become somebody because YOU saw to it that they got the best! Because from the second they come into this world, YOU mirror everything they want to be, their character, the way they act and the life long lessons they will forever hold dear to them when you are no longer there.
Absolutely beautiful. I wish all woman embrace motherhood with this committment that it is a life long covenant. Children are a blessing of the Lord, but parents have a responsibility towards their kids. So many parents take parenthood to lightly. Evidence is seen by the many abandoned children.
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